Who Am I - I Am Spread

Queen of  Cups from  the Morgan
Greer Tarot deck.

Today, I thought of devising a new Tarot spread. That is actually unusual for me, as I devise spreads very very rarely.  I just saw a movie yesterday called 'I Am'. It was about four short stories, and at the end of each story, the central character found a sense of identity. I thought we could do this with Tarot, use it as a tool to find your identity. Picking the daily Card draws from the Revelations Tarot made me want to explore them even further, specially the Court Cards. Generally, we have 16 Court cards in all - 4 Pages, 4 Knights, 4 Queens and 4 Kings. In this Tarot deck, we have 32 Court card depictions which include the reversed interpretations. So, in order to have a balanced life, I thought that I need to have a bit of the qualities of all of these cards.

This is a very simple exercise. Remove only the Court cards and only use them for the purpose of this spread.You can use the Court cards of any deck, and if you do not read reversals, you could also avoid that. Here, I will be using the Revelations Tarot.

So, here goes, the Who Am I - I Am spread.

Whatever are the roles you play in your life, list them down. I listed - sister, daughter, wife, friend, mother  (though i am not a mother, my motherly qualities), human being, academic, tarot reader. So, let's see what cards I get for all these roles I play in my life. I have a feeling, this spread is one of those which is an eye opener. No one likes to see the bad aspects of themselves, and sometimes they feel guilty that they are not good mothers, but the cards could think otherwise. So, it's a good spread to answer the question about who you really are. Try and join one quality from each of the cards which attracts you and feel fits you, to form an image of yourself, which you feel reflects who you are. The most important thing in this spread is to be honest. You cannot play games with yourself. After picking a card, keep it back in the deck, so that it could be repeated, so you could get the Queen of Wands in even 3 aspects of your life.

Sister - Knight of Wands (Rx) - scattered energies

I may not be the best sister, I don't know how to focus my energies in the right direction. I need to work on that.

Daughter - Knight of Cups - giving

My relationship with my mother is great, and I give her lots of love and emotional support.

Wife - Page of Pentacles - dutiful 

As I wife, I am a page, I become a child who is pampered. I am dutiful and do what is expected of me.

Friend - Queen of Wands - social 

As a friend, I am social and friendly. With my friends, I am outgoing and expressive.

Mother - Knight of Pentacles (Rx) - stressed 

As a mother, I will be stressed out LOL, this knight looks pretty upset. Maybe I will have to learn to destress myself, and save myself from getting hysterical!

Human being - Page of Swords - intelligent 

I am analytical and intelligent, and a good judge of people.


Academic - Page of Cups - Study with my heart

I put in my heart and emotions when I study. If I'm emotionally attached to the subject, I study well.

Tarot reader - Queen of Cups (Rx) - mysterious 

As a tarot reader, I am mysterious and secretive. The Queen of Cups(Rx) is overemotional. I should be less attached to my clients and less 'involved'.

Overall, I have a balance of Wands, Pentacles, Cups and Swords in my personality so it is well-balanced. On the other hand, I got the Knight three times suggesting a quality that I love to 'charge' at things and keep things moving. I have no King card showing that I am not the 'boss' or the 'ruler' in any of the roles in my life.
I found this a very interesting exercise of self analysis. Why don't you try it? 

Card of the Day - April 12, 2012

Today's Card of the Day is the Two of Swords (Rx). Both the upright and reversed versions of this card seem similar, there is a man on a tight rope balancing the tip of a sword on the palm of his hand. In the reversed position, the background shows an hurricane-like situation. He seems to be sucked in a whirlpool of monotony. Also, he has lost his confidence and seems to be falling off the rope and dropping the sword. You are struggling at your work, and doing things that are physically impossible. Do not strain yourself too much, it shows on your face and in your attitude towards other people. Are you being too grouchy today? Are you rude to someone nice just because you are stressed out? Maintain a good balance between your work and home.

Card of the Day - April 11, 2012

Today's Card of the Day is the Four of Pentacles. This card shows a man who is greedily grabbing on to a couple of pentacles. He looks made of steel, almost inhuman and robot-like. He only sees money and nothing else. Even behind him there are gold coins, and the entire card is golden in colour, showing even his thoughts are about money, gold and accumulating wealth. Money is an important part of our lives but we shouldn't let it rule us, impair our judgements and change our true nature. Is money making you act crazy today? Are you being biased to someone who has money and power or treating badly a poorer friend. Unintentionally, we may hurt people because of our high and mighty ways. Learn to share your money with others and be generous with it. Do not be stingy with your money, splurge a bit.

Card of the Day - April 10, 2012

Today's Card of the Day is The Devil (Rx). Upright this card shows an evil looking man, the devil who has trapped a woman and a man in a hell-like place. They are surrounded by money but can't use it. In the reversed position, it shows a complete obsession with wealth and physical pleasures. Beware of a person who may enter your life and tempt you or make you a victim of his selfishness. He will be infactuating, just like evil always is, but remember that it is only superficial. Today, you could bring out the worse in yourself - anger, greed and frustration. Money earned from illegal means will be lost or destroyed. 

Card of the Day - April 9, 2012

Today's Card is ''The World'' (Rx) from the Revelations Tarot. Upright, this card is the best card in the deck, but reversed it shows some issues we may have today which will create some blocks. There will be some hurdles in your journey, and some delays. Your goal is tempting and seems near, but that doesn't mean it's going to come easy, you need to work hard for it. Expect delays and unexpected problems to arise even in the final stages. You will be nearing completion, but just short of being finished. 

Card of the Day - April 8, 2012

Today's Card of the Day is the 4 of Swords. It is a day of rest, contemplation and relaxation. It makes sense, as today is a Sunday and after a hectic week this man in the card looks cozied up in a blanket. He is not fully asleep, but deep in thought. The colours of the card are blue and green, colours of calmness and coolness. Today, you can make some good decisions by being by yourself. 

Card of the Day - April 7, 2012

Today's Card is the King of Wands (Rx). How interesting we should get this card, as it only applifies yesterday's Knight of Wands (Rx) card, energies splattered in the wrong direction. Instead of being the charming and the radiant king, this is the flirtatious and the selfish king. He is a manipulator and lives for himself. Today, you could be living selfishly, and for yourself. Be aware of those around you. Are you neglecting or taking them for granted? Are you being too attention craving? Are you being the one who wants to have the maximum 'likes' and 'comments' on Facebook at any cost? :-P If you are a boss, are you being too hard on your employees? Also, beware of falling in love with such a person, who appears to be interested in you, with his charming and flirtatious ways, but is only using you for his pleasure or to boost his ego. There is a big dragon's eye behind the king suggesting that he doesn't trust anyone, and the naked women reveal what is really going on in his mind. He is not what he appears to be.